White Walls by Toni Payne

Went trough a spiritual journey trying to find, understand and most importantly LOVE ME, had a few dark days and one of those dark days birthed WHITE WALLS. A lot has been said about me yet I stayed true to me, of course Im human so I am not perfect but the bigger picture is, people will talk, haters will hate, some people who mean well want u to live d life dey envisage for you…at the end of the day, you do what it takes to keep you happy. WHITE WALLS addresses pressure and touches on that annoying feeling, when people who don’t know much about u seem to be the ones with the most opinions on how you should live. Anyways..pls enjoy this piece and kindly leave a comment and share if you like..God Bless.

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In my minds eye I see darkness
I see pain.
The forces around me
They surround me
They try to deprive me
I try to break free.
Their touch is killing
I feel like breathing
I feel like healing
negativity out there demeaning
Not to me, but to he and to she
who dare address me
so quick to judge we
They believe,
Oh yes! they believe….
with their words, they have the power
to cut like a dagger
through my soul
leaving an empty hole?
I dont think so!
A look in their lifes mirror
speak volumes of imperfections
Pretending to be holy
Hmmm! Aint that sum shit homie..
Depression sets in
Aggression manipulates me
She wants me angry, vengeful, hateful
I will not give in
They control my mind
grab me from behind
My soul feels caged
I need to break free
I need to be me
I cannot conform
Who needs a reform
The voices, they come around me
Asking me to clean my surroundings
I hate this place,
I feel misplaced
I shout through my veils of lace
I don’t feel like cleaning this shit hole
So shut your pie hole, you asshole!
In my white walls I wish you could see
What it takes to really be me
Allow me make my mistakes
Allow me do what it takes
Allow me… even if I break
I’m close to the key
I need to break free
Free from this bondage
Mental, Emotional, Physical
Yes, they surround me
I need to break free.
The sound of metal through the silence
It rings like keys
I need to break free
In my white walls you can’t understand me
It takes a lot to really be me

Copyright 2013 – Toni Payne


  1. sisioge01

    White walls,these beautiful ma I can stop or hide the tears rolling down from my eyes,it makes me stronger and no matter wat people say I won’t stop been me.thanx sis u re d the best

  2. Ucheomar

    No one knows u like u do.sometimes we have to be allowed to make our own mistakes

  3. Ayodeji

    Lovely! Keep it up….!

  4. kemi Ajisafe

    Thats the most demanding thing in life-being urself,good job Toni

  5. Ayo

    I have a poem for your guest section…. How do I submit it?


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