As the tears flow freely in my household I try to make sense of things. Why did it have to happen to us, this type of thing shouldnt have happened. Why is life so unfair, What is the point of it all and what is our purpose in this life, are we just here to live and then die, why does God take away the good ones, and when will the pain go away. It dawned on me that this is it, there will be no second chance. How do you begin to move on from somthing so devastaing. I tried to create an outlet for my pain but it burns so deep within my soul it is literally taking my breath away. I tried so hard not to think about it, but that is impossible. I saw you on my sunday, “happy birthday aunty” you gave me a tight hug. How was I to know that would be the last happy birthday you would say to me. I just cant help but ask again, why? This is the type of stuff you see on TV, tragedies like this do not happen to good people. Then I face reality, yes it does, it happened to us. When will the pain go away, the pain can never go away.